Nursing

When I found out I was pregnant with Maddison, I wanted nothing more than to breastfeed her. I wanted that bond and all the joys that come with it. However nothing about Maddison's birth and the days to follow went anything like I had planned it. Of course by the time I finally got to hold her she wanted nothing to do with breastfeeding so I pumped. Not even two weeks after she was born I broke out with a horrible rash and the ER doc said she couldnt have my meds so I had to pump and dump. We then put Maddie on formula and her little body had a hard time switching and of course I then found out she was able to have the meds I was taking the whole time and I just didn't have the heart to switch her back even though I know breast was best for her. I was totally ok with how formula went for her, she is a very smart almost 4 year old. I wasn't upset that she was on formula although I did get upset when women who were hardcore breastfeeders teach their other children that formula is fake milk and that fake milk is bad for babies...yes I had a 3 year old ask me one time while we were out why I was feeding my baby fake milk and her mommy thought it was funny! I however didn't! Breastfeeding didn't work for me that time and some people need to realize that! So when Molly was born I wanted to give it my all again and try to nurse her. I never thought she would be a champ at it like she is :) It felt like I was having a baby for the first time because it was all so different. Even though I had Molly as a c section too it was just all so different but I felt so accomplished that she was a strong nurser. And now it seems like there is such a big fuss with nursing in public. When we are out and my baby has to eat I feed her I do have respect for others that may not "like" it and I cover up but people still stare at me. As if I'm doing something horribly wrong or nasty yet that is what our "fun bags" are for! It's not acceptable for a woman to nurse her baby but yet women can walk around half naked and that is ok. It's seen as nasty, gross, should be done in a bathroom (Uh how gross to feed your baby in a public restroom) and so on! Even when I am covered up I still have people stare at me and then someone the nerve to ask me to go to a restroom. It took all I had to not go off on her and keep my cool infront of Maddison! I just don't understand why society views breastfeeding like this. I would NEVER say anything to any women feeding their child in the most natural way nor to anyone whose baby was on formula. There is nothing wrong with either! Why is ok for women to be sexy and wear almost next to nothing in public yet nursing not ok! People want nusring mothers to go to the restroom or out to their cars or some where hidden because it's gross! Anywho I'm a proud nurser and my baby is getting a huge so I'm doing something right! I don't judge those that don't breastfeed and so those don't judge me because I do :)