You INSPIRE me

I have never thought I'd be the one being told "You inspire me" rather I was the one that is always inspired by someone else! How ever the past few days I have been getting the most amazing messages from friends that have truly touched me and have made me really stop and look at myself in a very different way than I have in a very long time. I really loved myself in every aspect of my life until I packed on weight from being pregnant and I really gained a lot no matter what I did the first time...80 lbs to be exact! I felt horrible, upset, nasty, and all those other words used to describe yourself in a not so good way. I didn't know how Matt could even still love me, how he could even want to take me places, how he was not embrassed to be seen with me and have people realize I was his wife. I felt so ashamed of who I was. I never really fixed myself up, never fixed my hair, wore clothes that hid how "big" I was (and still am) I just was blah! I was on my way to losing this horrible weight and well God blessed us with another princess and even though I continued working out while preggo I still packed it on :( and I felt like I was stuck all over again! However this time around (postpartum) things are going in a different direction. Instead of waiting until I was 9 months postpartum to start working out and trying to lose weight I'm now 3 months and already on my mission! And today I had to special ladies post such amazing words about me that just motivated me even more! Things like "she did cross fit while preggers! I wish I had an ounce of whatever shes on! she inspires me!" and "It's because it's true. Too many people wear masks. You show your true self and that is very comforting. I don't feel like I hide who I am. I mean business. That is what is so appealing, you are who you are. You are a VERY inspiring person. Now I feel like I need to say you inspire me so Brandi doesn't take all the glory LOL." and "You look amazing! I admire you so much. Everytime I see you, you have a smile on you. You have such strength and ability to see the positive in everything." they all made me cry! I couldn't believe me, the person so unhappy with herself made others feel this way! I truly believe God was showing me I am beautiful and how I should love me in my own skin...whatever I don't like I have the control to fix it and right now I feel like I am on top of the world and that nothing can stop me now! I don't want to be skinny, I want to be healthy, I want to be strong, I want to make my husband proud of me (he has never said other wise and I am truly a blessed woman, Matthew loves me with all his heart, with all his soul and treats me as only a king would treat his queen! That man loves me!!!) I want to be able to keep up with my kiddos! I don't want to be the girl I used to be in highschool, I want to be the woman I am meant to be! That's hiding deep down in there pounding hard to get out!!! And with the love and support of my friends and my man she will be soon out! Because I inspire someone and someone inspires me!!!